Impulsiveness, promptness and anxiety…I have no idea why, but I struggle with it…not fun let me tell you. I try to write about it in my personal journal, hoping that telling it to the journal will help. But it’s not helping…So I find I want to “yell” my problem to the world!!!

It’s caused difficulties in our relationship and also at work, so much so that I had to recently change job!…So here I am, yelling loud that I’m struggling with mental health issues.

But this post isn’t meant to be negative, it’s meant to be positive! I’ve been in therapy for a year now (or so). It’s night and day.

• We worked on self esteem and care for myself.
• I’ve learned to let go of the things that I can’t control. The circle theory of the movie “The Mask of Zorro” is a very good analogy.
• I also read a few motivational books, the one that stood up the most in my mind is “Embrace the suck!” (https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/53019094-embrace-the-suck). I highly recommend it!

Just a few examples to say that I’m finally able to manage my anxiety. My focus has improved (which is an improvement for an ADHD like me) and my ADHD medication has finally started working again! The ADHD voices in my head have stopped going at lightspeed!

I also don’t feel guilty doing stuff I like (like taking care of this website!😍) which are figuring out how my 3D printer does (ongoing job), painting minis (hence the 3D printer), 3D design on Blender, YT channel, outdoor photography, Photoshop-ing my holiday cards, cooking and baking. (That’s the short list!)

💕 I also now feel ready to go looking for love again!!! There’s a beautiful and kind woman for me out there, the right Ms-almost-perfect!!! 💕

Do I think I’m the only one in the world who has those problems? Not in the slightest! It makes me feel less alone…and if reading this makes you feel less alone, then welcome to my page, which is where I pour out my mind’s weirdness in order to try to make sense of this crazy world…

You’re most welcomed to join me in this journey, because its not fun being alone.

If you come here at the bottom of your barrel, then let me tell you that it’s possible to climb that infite-looking ladder to the top of the barrel and come out of it. It’s a lot of work, but it’s very rewarding.

And it’s THE most important thing you’ll do in life, taking care of yourself will make you a better person (at least it did for me). You’ll be able to take care of others a lot more easily that way.

If you need to talk, to empty your mind of dust and filth, I’m lending my eyes to read you in the comments…no judgements, no laughing at you, just a pair of eyes to share your problems because we all need to scream our problems at the world once in a while!

Welcome to my home on the web, it’s open! Take off your mask and have a virtual cookie 🍪!!!